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023: Heavy Lifting.

I think all relationships go in cycles. Even romantically inclined relationships. There's periods of time where different parts that make up the whole do the heavy lifting in the relationship, while the others do less. Sometimes we choose to love people through these heavier lifting cycles. In part we are proving that we are in it for the long haul, while simultaneously demonstrating that despite the current circumstances we love people still.  Sometimes we have to be the glue that holds a relationship together. Sometimes we have to go the extra mile, send that extra text, make plans for quality time when they don't feel like getting out of bed, send them screen shots of home remedies when they're sick, or we have to swing by the store and pick them up Ensure and Hawaiian-style poke because they're hungry and suck at nourishing theirselves.  If you haven't ever truly loved someone this concept may go way over your head. You just might not understand the typ

022: Chemo

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Truth is, I talk in riddles. Even in my abrasive straight shooter vernacular I tend to speak in double entendres. I can't help it. It makes communicating fun for me, but I've come to realize it presents a challenge for those in my fab 5 or anyone getting to know me. I give hints, I allude to what I may be feeling, but 9/10 it won't be the first thing I say. I've always said I wasn't good at telling people I'm sick. But the truth is, I'm not good at embracing I'm sick. So telling people is hard for me because in those conversations I really have to embrace what it is I'm saying, how I really feel, and tapping into those emotions is harder than taking calculus in high school while having senior-itis. You following?  So I found out last Tuesday that Donald Trump was President, and I had to undergo chemo therapy again. Obviously I was crushed, but I found comfort in how committed my specialist is to procuring a better quality of life for me