#SEBestLife

*While these blogs are all submissions that represent a truth that I am owning for myself. This particular submission is not directly a reflection of one particular relationship, it does not find its inspiration from any one soul, but rather a collection of experiences and people that I have loved unauthentically. For in my heart I know it was "The Bells" who I really wish I had confessed my truth too, no individual person is responsible for this revelation. I actually had a conversation with a friend who said something to me which made me look deep into myself and ask myself WHY? "On-Call Relationship" is the term that was used. So "San Diego Dispatch", thank you for helping me own my truth.* So let's get into it... I've used this definition before, but that's because it's imperative you understand the literal meaning of this word, before you understand  my truth .  Intentions:  [in- ten -sh uh   n]    noun 1. an   act   or  

Ever since I made the decision to accept my truths, and ALL that they might surface I've been so happy . It's unnerving. I can't stop smiling, I've had the most wonderful conversations with the folks in my life. I feel a calm and peace that I can't articulate beyond that.  I've talked so much on the phone lately, I'm starting to wonder why I ever despised it in the first place. Once a certain level of candor is reached within a relationship dynamic it's really quite beautiful. I spent ELEVEN hours talking to my biological parents. The things I learned about them, ABOUT ME . It's like wow. I opened my closet and all sorts of emotions came out. It's beautiful really.  My face literally hurts from smiling I'm so happy. Hindsight may be 20/20, but looking back on things I thought were so important in the past is hilarious. On one hand I'm ashamed of my immaturity, but on the other I'm so proud of my growth. I stopped being frien