003: Silence.
Ever really sit and reflect on a conversation and emerge with such clarity it scared you? I have. I sent a long grueling email to a close professor of mine and in it I outlined how confused and sad I've been lately. What I realized is I've been this way for awhile. Enjoying the highs and feeling devastated during the lows. It seems even the brightest smiles have the darkest clouds behind them. I literally sat in silence for 4 hours during class. If you've shared more than five minutes with me, you know what a controversial thing this is. I couldn't speak because even with the inconvenience of class I needed to be still. I needed to sit alone with my thoughts and figure out what they all meant to me. I sat there while everyone talked for FOUR hours and all I could think was what's wrong with me? Why am I really upset? What is this familiar but so unfamiliar feeling? Over the last year I've constantly heard how I've been granted a second chance at li